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I've been spending so much time with my bestest friend ever this holiday season, and I've been having tons of fun.:) I mean who uses the phrase, "Magigiraffe ako?" hahaha. We went to Cavite last December 25, and on our way home we were talking when the song "welcome to the black parade" came on.
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Me:Crush ko yung lead niang band..
Chi: Sus! Lahat naman crush mo! Kamuka nia yung guy sa Linkin Park..
Me: Sino si Mike Shinoda? Yung hapon ba?
Chi: Hindi..yung kumanta ng.." i tried so hard..but not so far.."
Me: Ah.. yung blonde.. yung semikal yun diba?
Chi: Oo! Wait.. SEMIKAL ROMANCE!
Me: AMP!
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Upon passing by the Airport Runway:

Me:*silence*
Chi: hmm..Runway. Runway Bride!
Me: Ano na naman yan?
Chi: Yung ano..kay Julia Roberts!
Me: Gaga! Runaway bride yun!
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We were watching American Pie Band Camp when mom came in the room, and I paused the movie. Accidentally, it paused on the scene where the woman's boobs were closed up:

Mom: UY! Ano yan? Bold? Bata bata nio pa..
Me in slang english: Mama, its comedy!
Chi: *batok sabay tawa* Comedy pala ah!

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Wala lang. Im having tons of fun because of her. We've been friends for almost 14 years na.:) Anyways, I went to Makati and Mom bought me a Barbie Sparkle Stuffed toy from The Magic of Pegasus! Loves it![^^,]

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First of all, let me start this post by greeting all of you a MERRY MERRY MERRY CHRISTMAS! May this day be filled with love, joy, peace and happiness. Remember to share it with your family, because Christmas wouldn't be Christmas without your beloved Family.:)


I attended the Misa de Aguinaldo at our parish, and the homily struck me. Father Ariel talked about what Christmas is about. According to the Roman Catholics, Christmas is for :

Family
-Jesus wouldn't grow up to the Man he is, had it been for Mary and Joseph. Ofcourse, his parents played a great role in His life. WE should share our Christmas with our Family the way Jesus shared Himself with Mary & Joseph.

Poor
-Mary was poor. Joseph was poor. Jesus was poor. The one's who first knew about Jesus' birth are poor- the shepherds. Christmas is for the poor, not only those who are the materially poor, but also those who are HUMBLE. Those who are wealthy however should open their hearts and help the poor with compassio, love, and the goal to spread happiness.

Hope
-Christmas signifies the birth of Jesus, the Savior of all Mankind. Knowing this, we are given hope for the redemption of our sins, and for the promise of everlasting life.

LOVE
-Jesus was born because of God's love for man. Man should follow by example and learn to love one another, not only during Christmastime, but all year long.:)

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There you go. Those are what I've learned for Christmas 2006. I hope you learn from it too, and live accordingly to the Word of God. Hallelujah.:)

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Inatake na naman ako ng kagagahan ko. May nagawa na naman akong hindi kanaisnais para sakin, at para sa iba. Oo alam ko.

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Mahal kong yaya. Mahal na mahal na mahal kita. Maligaya ang pasko dahil kasama ko kayo ni Nanay Mayet. Salamat sa pagaaruga. Mahal kita. Maligayang pasko.:'-)

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Anyways, I have been walking aimlessly around the neighborhood days ago, and I was able to see houses decorated creatively with lights and christmas decorations. There was even this one tree which was decorated like a christmas tree. In our street, our neighboors decided to compete with out house's decorations. Funny thing really, because when they saw us decorating, they immediately bought new lights,etc. Good thing my family doesn't care about those.

Upon walking further, I also noticed this one house. There were no lights, nor decorations on it. Also, because I could see the inside of the house, I could see that their Christmas tree was also decorated in a simple, humble manner. I smiled to myself and thought about the Belen again in Asilo.

I thought about it, and then I realized that, Christmas is not about the gifts, the lights, the putobumbong after the Misa de Gallo, or Santa Claus. The true essence of Christmas is found deep inside us.

Christmas is supposed to be felt, not seen. And the holidays should be celebrated in anticipation of the Birthday of Our Savior.

Funny thing is, not many people realize this. Even those who spent hours praying. Those who attend Sunday mass fervently and frequently. Lucky are those who know the true meaning of Christmas.

Its the time of the year when each and every one of us should feel blessed of what we have, and what we don't have. Contentment is the key to happiness. Love gives us happiness.

May love fill each and everyone's Christmas.:) Spread the Cheer![^^,]

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Finally, its our Christmas Break already. 2 weeks filled with Holiday cheer. I don't know. I just love the Holidays, the cold wind blowing my hair during the afternoon, and the early sunset. Also, don't forget about the Puto Bumbong which is the staple breakfast food of filipinos for 9 days, eaten after the traditional Misa de Gallo.

However, even before Christmas, me and my friends devoted one day to spreading Christmas Cheer. We went to Asilo de San Vicente de Paul, an orphanage located in UN Avenue Manila. It was an outreach project of the seniors, and the class mayors. At first, we didn't know what to expect. I haven't had any experience regarding outreach projects, and to be frank, I was quite nervous.

When we arrived, the sight of a very warmly Belen caught my eyes. It reminded me and my friends of the lobby of the roman hotel in the Lizie McGuire movie.[**,]

Yes, It was that beautiful.

However, the kids were lovelier than the belen. The sight of more than 20 children filled the room, and sang the "Welcome to the Family" song. That song hit a soft spot in me, not only because it was my graduation song back in prep school, but also because the one's singing were orphans. No father or mother, and they were welcoming us to their 'family'. I burst into tears, and felt really loved.

There was this one girl who caught my eye,& turns out, my sister noticed her too. She was wearing a black dress with blue and pink ruffles. She had a sad face, and wasn't singing. It was then that we decided to do anything just to put a smile on that little girl's face. And thats what we were able to do.

Her name was Niña. I don't know, but I felt really close to the little girl and her brother, Niño. So close that when it was time for us to leave, I couldn't help but cry and promise that we'd be back. When she ran back to us, and asked when, I knew that I would always come back to that warm orphanage. Maybe its not the place, but the feeling of happiness from making other people, or children happy, even just for a little while, especially during the Yuletide.
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I got this survey from Bea's Blog.:)


I WANT: Daniel fro Christmas.
I HAVE: a great guy and friends.:)
I HOPE: he stops cramming and study on time.[^^,]
I HATE: spiders.[--.]
I MISS: Dan.[**.]
I REGRET: hurting myself.[--.]
I LOVE: God, Dad, Dan and my friends and family.[^^,]
I AM NOT: kikay! PUNYETA KA BORJA![--,]
I DANCE: when no one's around.[**,]
I SING: all the time.
I CRY: whenever I feel like it.
I WRITE: poetry whenever I feel a strong surge of any emotion. Inspiration.[^^.]
I NEED: a kiss.[^^'.]
I SHOULD: learn to be more patient.[^^',]

[YES OR NO]
You keep a diary: Nope.
You have a secret journal: yeah.
You bite your fingernails: not anymore.
You believe in love: Doi.[^^,]

[DO YOU]
Take a shower everyday: Yep. I love water.[^^.]
Have any tattoos/where?: nope.
Piercings/where?: ears.
Think you're a health freak: no.[--'.]
Get along with your parents: im civil to my mom. [^^',]

[FAVORITE]
NUMBER: 18 & 23.
COLOR: baby blue.
MONTH: december.[^^,]
SONGS: as of now its walk away, my only wish this year, and all i want for christmas.[^^',]
FOOD: CHOCOLATE & blueberry cheese cake. [**,]
SEASON: winter.
DRINK: Rootbeer float and Berry Lemonade from Gumbo's. Yumm.
VEGGIE: potatoes.
FRUIT: Melon, watermelon and mango.[^^,...]
FAST FOOD: depends.

[IN THE LAST 24 HOURS, HAVE YOU]
CRIED?: yes. [--.]
HELPED SOMEONE?: mhm.[^^.]
BOUGHT SOMETHING?: yep yep.
GONE TO THE MOVIES?: nope.
GONE OUT FOR DINNER?: nope.
WRITTEN A REAL LETTER?: nope..
WRITTEN IN A JOURNAL?: yepyep :)
MISSED SOMEONE?: I always do.[**,]
HUGGED SOMEONE?: yes.
FOUGHT WITH YOUR PARENTS?: ALMOST.>:P
FOUGHT WITH A FRIEND?: nope.

[WOULD YOU EVER]
1. Eat a bug? - eeek. no. [--'.]
2. Bungee jump? - If Dan's holding me, sure.[^^.] I'll probably cry due to the fact that im scared of heights.XP
3. Hang glide? - Suure.
4. Kill someone? - nope.its wrong, and I hate gore. No, not Al Gore you silly boy.
7. Parachute from a plane? - maybe[^^.]
8. Walk on hot coals? - sure.:P
9. Go out with someone for their looks? -looks are just bonuses in a relationship dearie.[^^.]
10. For their reputation? - erm. not applicable?:P
11. Be a vegetarian? - eerrrrr.sure.
12. Wear plaid with stripes? - nuh uh
13. IM a stranger? - sure.[^^.]
14. Sing karaoke? - Oh Yeah![-^.]
17. Run a red light? - No.
18. Dye your hair blue? - Sure, as long as its washable.[**.]
19. Be on Survivor? -nooooooooooooooooo.
20. Wear makeup in public? - yes.
21. NOT wear makeup in public? - yes.
23. Kick a baby? - You *&%$#@&*^%()^%! NO WAY!
24. Date someone more than ten years older than you? - I'm taken.[**,]
25. Stay up all through the night? - *grins* Suuuure. [^-,]

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I'm bored.:P

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New Layout to add to the Holiday Cheers.:) I loved Happy Feet, and I love Penguins now. Not to mention, me and my sister are now known as penguins. Joy much.:D

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Quite frankly, I am very excited for Christmas, though I have failed to get my Christmas Shopping done. [--.] Eeek. Its our last day on the 15th already, and I haven't bought anything yet. Doooooooooom.[**.]

On a much more merrier note, things between me and Daniel have gone from rocky, to uber smooth. Now I just regret the scars on my wrist. O well.[**.] I know its wrong, but I know many of you had experience that quick surge of emotions and adrenaline whenever rage is felt, that you don't have any control on your actions whatsoever already.[**.] Thanks for those people who got so concerned.[^^.]

Anyways, can anyone help me in picking out gifts for the boys? Though I have a brother and a boyfriend, I still am clueless in giving gifts to boys. Its just so hard.[**.] I asked them what they wanted, and they told me they'd love a Playstation 3. [--.] In your dreams.[^^,] Help.[**.]

So yes, I have just updated to let you know about the new layout(as if it's not obvious enough eh?[^^,] ) and a quick update of things.[--,] Holiday Cheers Y'all! [^^,]

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*Tumahimik ka na..
~ HINDI AKO TATAHIMIK!..HINDI PWEDE DAHIL HINDI KA MARUNONG MAKINIG!..HINDI KA MAKAINTINDI!.. ANG TIGAS TIGAS NG ULO MO!..HINDI PORKET MAHAL KITA, IBIG SABIHIN NA NA PWEDE MO NA AKO GAGUHIN AT TRATUHIN NG MASAMA! HALOS LAHAT NG MGA KAIBIGAN KO, GANUN ANG SINASABI! NA MASAMA ANG PAGTRATO MO SAKIN!..
*Tumahimik ka na..
*Hindi na ako makahinga...

(katahimikan)
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Alam mo, hanggang ngayon, sobra sobra pa din ang sakit. Hindi, hindi dahil sa mga sugat na aking idinulot sa aking braso. Masakit dahil alam ko na totoo. Masakit nga talaga ang katotohanan. Napagtanto ko na hindi talaga ako nararapat sayo. Hindi tama na ibigay mo at ipadama sakin ang pagibig mo. Sabi nga nila nakakaadik. Pag naramdaman mo na, ang hirap pigilan. Naadik ako. Totoo talaga ang sabi nila. Mahirap din pala.

Nung sinimulan mo ako sigawan, natigilan ako. Hindi ko na alam ang sasabihin ko. Tumulo lang ng tumulo ang mga luha. Dahan dahang namugto ang aking mga mata. Natorete ako. Natakot. Napaisip. Siguro nga..Siguro nga tama ka. Marahil ako nga ang dahilan ng lahat. Ako nga siguro ang may kasalanan. Gawa ng kabaliwan ko.. ng katangahan ko.. Sige na. Inaako ko na. Tama ka naman talaga. Mali ako.. Inakala ko na maiintindihan mo lahat. Umasa ako. Inakala ko na ikaw na talaga yun. Yung tipong, isang tingin lang sakin.. kahit na nakangiti ako.. alam agad na may problema akong pasan.

Grabe talaga. Napakaraming luha na ang tumulo. Sobra sobrang sakit. Nagmuka akong tanga sa harap ng iba sa kakahagulgol ko. Napagtawanan ako. Namura at kinutya ng iba. "Lalaki lang yan, pinaggaganyanan mo." Ika nila. Eh bakit ba.. Eh mahal kita. Mahal na mahal. Sa mga mata ko, anghel ka. Isang anghel na hindi kailan man mapaparapat sa isang katulad ko. Mali talaga.

Patawad Mahal ko, sobrang mahal kita eh.. Mali na itong ginagawa ko sa iba.. pero...

*tigil*

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Nagaway kami ni Dan. Nagsugat ako. Nalungkot ako. Nagdurugo ang puso ko. Tipong, gusto ko na talaga bumitaw, pero sobra sobra ang pagmamahal ko hindi ko magawang iwanan.. Sinigaw sigawan ako..muntik na ako atakihinng hika sa sobrang takot ko.. Hindi ko akalain na magagawa nya iyon, pero nagawa niya. Hagulgol ako.. Kinausap ko kung sino sino para lang makaramdam ng ginhawa.. Kinausap ko si JM. Naglokohan kami, at natuwa ako ng konti. Kinausap ko si Sissy, guminhawa ng kaunti ang pakiramdam ko, at dumalang ang tulo ng mga luha mula sa aking mga namumugtong mga mata.

Oo na. Ako na ang mali. Ako naman lagi. Kasalanan ko ba na gusto ko sakin lang ang atensyon mo bago ko kantahin ang kantang pinaghirapan kong gawin para sayo? Na pinilit kong sulatin kahit na 18th month ang bati mo, kahit na 20th month na natin? Mahirap talaga. Sobrang nasaktan ako. Lalo pa nung giniit mo na ako ang dapat humingi ng paumanhin. Kaya eto na.

Sorry. Yun na. Sorry dahil nasaktan kita. Sorry dahil sobrang balat sibuyas ako. Akala ko lang talaga nung una, maiintindihan mo. Hindi rin pala. Akala mo.. Pag nasasabihan kita ng masama.. hindi ako nasasaktan? Sobrang sakit nun sakin.. at sobrang pinagsisisihan ko pagkatapos.. Pero syempre, hindi mo alam yun, kahit na ilang beses ko ng sinabi. Hindi mo alam na bawat sugat na napapataw sa aking braso.. Paraan ko yun para ako ang masaktan, at hindi ikaw. Akala mo lang na ginagawa ko iyon para masaktan ka. Ewan ko ba sayo. Pinipilit ko na intindihin ka..pero gusto ko ng bumitaw. Sabi nga ni jm:

Jm Manalo: wag mo iyakan yun
Jm Manalo: lalaki lang yun
Jm Manalo: mrami pa iba jan
Jm Manalo: na ndi tanga pra ganunin ka ;)

Sabi mo, sabi sayo ni Tomtom, at ng mga kaibigan mo, hindi tama ang pagtrato ko sayo. Alam mo ba, sobrang nasaktan ako. Sobra sobrang luha ang tumulo mula sa mga mata ko nung sinabi mo iyon. Sobra. Hindi ko maintindihan kung bakit.

Diyos ko, anong gagawin ko?

Sobrang mahal kita. Patawad..

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