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Hey hun.. Read this. Read and think about it.:

"Do not spoil what you have by desiring what you have not; remember that what you now have was once among the things you only hoped for."

"We tend to forget that happiness doesn't come as a result of getting something we don't have, but rather of recognizing and appreciating what we do have."

"Contentment is natural wealth, luxury is artificial poverty"

"There is no end of craving. Hence contentment alone is the best way to happiness. Therefore, acquire contentment."

"Everyone chases after happiness, not noticing that happiness is right at their heels."

"It is better to want what you have than to have what you want."

"It takes more distress and poison to kill someone who has peace of mind and loves life."

"Man never has what he wants, because what he wants is everything."

You may be looking for something else.. but you may not know that all you could ever want is already there.. *sigh* It hurts..you know?

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Oh a happier note:

I hanged out with Chi earlier, and I got to meet her cute niece and nephew : Natalie and Jason.
She asked them to sing twinkle twinkle little star and baa baa black sheep.. They from Cebu, so they got this Visayan accent.. their songs went like this:

"Trinkle Trinkle Litter Star..."

This is my favorite.:D:
"Baah Baah Black sheep many many more! Yes sir! yes sir! three plus four!"

Hahah. Cuteness.:P
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Just found out the Jeahan won't be studying in OB this year. Sad.:( I miss you gurl!

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"Its unfair that girls have to compete with videogames just to get their guy's attention."

That simple phrase was used as my status in YM this afternoon. I've read many magazine articles about this simple conflict between couples, but I thought the day that me and my beau would fight about it will never come.:P

Months ago, if ever I read those articles, I would probably snigger and tell my friends how weird those girls are.. seeing theyre getting mad because of video games.:P

Ofcourse I'm wrong, seeing that Dan is an avid gamer and I am a sucker for his constant attention.:P

Booooy was I off.:P This afternoon we fought about that.:p Yes, I know whats in your heads.. -Again? Yes, we fought again. Cute eh?:P

Omg. As in full-blown fighting. Haha. In front of Audrey. Fun Fun Fun.:P

Good thing we made up before he went to bed.. we'll.. he fell asleep on his computer table.. and then he started to snore..and it was soooo cute.:P Ehe. Who could resist that cutesy snores?:P

Anyways, I checked out Warcraft earlier hun.. and I just couldnt get it.:D If you teach me, Im willing to learn.. but..>:) *snores:D*

Hee hee. I love you my cutesy snoring beau.:P

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I've been checking out sites of foundations that have been helping the poor, children, animals, and the environment.. I want to help so badly.

There's this foundation..the Cancer Warriors Foundation : http://c-warriors.org .

They are helping children who are diagnosed with cancer. Let us help them:)

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Lennie is fiiixed!:-D I finally learned how to replace the strings and tune the guitar..erm. Well, not so sure about the tuning, but anyways, I'm happy about it.

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Tinkered with the layout Ches gave me months ago, and made it the new layout of our blog. Erm. Our, reffering to me and Dan. Ehe.XP

check it out here.

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2 weeks before school starts. Cringe!

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Decided that im gonna upload random pics..:

Me and Javster pretending to be Chinese.. well he is chinese.. so i guess im pretending.XP

No fear. Haha.


His cutest pic ever. Hehe. Cuuute.:p
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Peace doesn't mean silence, no busy streets, no noise or chatter from the outside world, but the calmness of the heart amidst all of these.
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My rabbit died..:-( My little rabbit died yesterday.:-( She was an easter gift from my mom a year after my dad died..Something attacked her..*sighs*

Found out after seeing the incredulous smile of someone being so hypocritical. Rawr you.
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Went to SM Mall of Asia (*sings in a mock voice* The bigggeest maaall in assssiiaaa!). That place was really crowded.. Ugh. And its so big, my feet are still hurting now from walking all over the place.

The sunset in Manila Bay is practically to die for.. Too bad I didnt get a picture.
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Is bummed and slightly depressed.
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[edit/slash]

I despise him.

I would hate to have a love/hate relationship. As much as I love those, having one in real life is enough for me to slash my wrists with a silver dagger.

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How did we get from saying 'I love you'

to 'I'll see you around someday'

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*yawns*
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Yay. Taylor Hicks won!:-D haha. I'm loving the golden idols.XP

What happened to Clay Aiken's hair.XO He reminded me of Barry Manilow for some reason..

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Ugh. Away na naman kami. war.war. war. I remember that song from 13 going on 30.. yung.. Love is a battlefield. Haha.XP

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I'm sleeeepy.

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I can't wait for school to start.. lounging around the house doing nothing is getting.. boring.XP

Cant wait for school to end too. *wonder why...*

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Filled out my application form for UP yesterday. Huwa. 1 more year and I'll be in college. Crazy really. It feels like I was just a newbie freshman yesterday. Oooh. Time flies by so fast.

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I miss my friends. SUPER.

Guys, lets go hang out before school starts.:)

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Woke up at 8 am. Slept at 3 am. Oh joy. 0_o
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My hair is currllyyy.XP I woke up with messy and curly hair. Yegaaads. Dad'd gene's are showing up.XP

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X_x Girl Confessions x_X

[ ] I do wear make up..
[x] When I walk by mirrors, I cant help but
look
[ ] I love pink..
[x] I have cried at a movie theater
[x] I love chocolate
[x] Getting flowers still makes me smile
[ ] I've wrecked a car
[x] I can put mascara on without opening
my mouth
[ ] I'd do anything for a guy
[x] I currently have a boyfriend
[x] I love cuddling
[x] Johnny Depp is sexy
[ ] Gotten Detention/principal's office
[x] If I have to dress like a ........ to get your
attention,then forget it buddy
[x] I love to laugh
[ ] Ive flashed someone/some people
[ ] I've skinny dipped
[x] I like Rock
[ ] I like rap
[x] I like Electronics/techno
[ ] I carry a purse everywhere
[ ] I carry my cell phone at ALL times
[x] I do own a spice girls CD
[x] I own a Britney Spears CD
[ ] I play hard to get -hahahaha
[x] Boys are fun to tease
[ ] Football is boring
[x] I love athletic boys
[x] I love rockers
[ ] Hot guys are better then sweet guys
[x] Sweet guys are better than hot guys
[x] I prefer sweet hotty guys.
[x] Ive been called a tease *>:-P*
[x] Lip gloss is WAY better than lipstick
[ ] can't leave the house without makeup
[x] I'm a bitch. Deal with it. [hahaha]
[x] I play video games, even when there are other
people around
[x] My friends are the best, and they're
important to me
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*random.*
I wanna love you in a hot tub.XP
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1)how many messages do you have in your
inbox?
-- 90+

2)what pissed you off today?
-- uhm, Dan not telling me where he's going..and leaving me hanging?

3)what are you looking forward to?
-- Next summer.;)

4)who was the last person you talked to?
-- Dan.

5)what freaked you out today?
-- Uhm.. the lobsters in american idol..

6)do you feel guilty?
-- nope.

7)does somebody harass you mercilessly
lately?
-- haha. no.

8)do you fight back?
-- usually, i do.:P

9)what was the latest dream you had?
-- T_T

10)who do you text everyday?
-- chi, dan, manda.

11)who did you last talk to on the phone?
-- erm.. operator?XP

12)ever got expelled?
-- no.

13)who do you wish would die right now?
-- none.:)

14)do you believe in karma?
-- i guess?

15)what's the weirdest thing that happened
to you today?
- none yet. haha.

16)are you sleepy?
-- heck yes.XP

17)are you contented with your life?
-- yes.:)

18)who do you hate?
-- erm.. hate is such a big word don't you think?

19)are you drunk?
-- no

20)who are the people in denial?
-- uhm.. those who are in denial.:P

21)ever been heartbroken?
-- yes.

22)ever had a bloody accident?
-- erm. banging my head on the sink making my nose bleed?XP

23)do you miss somebody?
-- yes.

24)have you met your soulmate?
-- hopefully, yes.:)

25)do you think you're pretty?
-- haha. no.XP

26)ever fell on the stairs?
-- hahaha. yes.;;)

27)who are you thinking about?
-- Dan.XO
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SO early. SO many surveys. So bored. NO hubby. argh.XP

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Haha. This is my update for yesterday.:P Warning: Mushiness ahead.:)
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May 23
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Its been 14 months since I said yes to this incredibly nice, shy boy who wooed me with his girlie side *grins* when he asked me if I can be his girlfriend. Turns out, that decision would be one of the bestest ones I've even made in the span of my 15-almost-16 years life.

Haha. I remember my 2nd grade teacher telling me that if ever I'm in the age to find a boyfriend which is like.. the hubby material, his last name should start with the letter A, since mine starts with the letter Z.:-P And ever since I was young, I've loved the name Daniel already. If I just got influenced by the harry potter films, I dont know.

Just quite funny how I ended up with a guy named Daniel Adair.:) Maybe its just a sign?:P

So far, the road of our relationship is..well, unpredictable. One day, it could be smooth-sailing, and war could be looming the next, and we both have our share of laughter and tears.

For the past months, I could say, and my friends could attest to it that I am happy. Happier than before. Happier than ever. I always laugh when after I tell them that we've been in a fight, they'd just tell me that its all nonsense, since we always make up later.

Our fights don't usually last for long. The longest span of our fighting time was two days. Haha. Its strange, because we always fight.:-P We're just.. stubborn by nature, so go figure.;;)

He's doing a great job making me feel so special. Haha. Even Ms. Cervantes told me that I look blooming.-_-

As strange and unpredictable life is, I can just.. see how he'd remain a constant figure in mine. I might be saying this prematurely, but I know in my heart that I want him to stay.

Annyways.

Daniel Riley Adair, I know you're reading this and I want to let you know that you have made me happy for the past 14 months, and I just want to thank you for that.:) You are so special, and you know it! Going on forever, right?:-D I love you with all my heart.:) happy 14th.:)

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Checked outAte Thea's blog, and saw this funny video:


Sakit sa ulo.XP Hahaha.

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Watched The Da Vinci Code in Town earlier. Looooved it.:D Ron Howard is a genius.:D

The cinematography was..well at first I got dizzy with the camera angles, but somehow deeper into the film, it was very, precise and fit for the scene.:)

The locations were beautiful, and I so want to go there someday.:)

As for the actors, though Tom Hanks wasn't how I envisioned Robert Langdon, I think he did a great job. As for Audrey Tautou, I think she's really beautiful, and her accent is so..erm.. Sophie-ish. Hehe. Had fun mocking the Doc. Oct guy.XO I was teasing my brother, cuz he's a big fan of Spidey and LOTR, about how a villain turned into a bishop, and how Sir Ian Mckellen (sp?) turned into a maniac with 2 bastons.XP. Hehe.

Anyways, enough about my inner critique.XP

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I'm currently crushing on Paul Bettany (Silas) because of the movie. Haha. Im so weird no? I just thought he looked cute in Wimbledon eh..Heehee. **Daaaaan, relax, at least its not another William, right?;;) **
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Wasn't able to get Lennie fixed because the guy who's supposed to fix my guitar wasnt dare. Rawrish.
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I'm so wanting to buy the special illustrated edition of Davinci Code and Angels & Demons. Its like.. P 1059.. Donations, anyone? hehe.
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Just want to greet the bestest friend in the world:
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" I love you, you didnt feel the same.
Though we're apart, you're in my
heart."

"I wanted you to know, I love the way you laugh."

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Its dad's 8th year death anniversary today. 8 years had passed, and I was forced to grow up because of that. My mom couldn't afford to have someone as kulit and as naughty as me in the house.. soo yeah.

I miss my father terribly. Its just so hard because there are times when I know that he'd be the only one who could understand me and what I'm going through.. but he's not there.:-|

I miss you Dad.:)
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I.NEED.TO.WATCH.THE.DA.VINCI.CODE.AS.SOON.AS.POSSIBLE.

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Im so so so dying to see the movie, and mum just wont let me. Huhuhu.:'-(
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Chi and I was almost bitten by a rabid looking stray dog earlier, and Chi sunk her nails deep into my flesh. Haha. That scared me more than the dog.XP
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Robert. Langdon. + Sophie. Noveau.= the da vinci code. help.

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Rawr. SO SO SO Pissed off right now. The Da Vinci Code is R-18! Rawr. rawr. rawr. I sooooo need to watch that movie. I need to see Robert Langdon. Haha. Tom hanks.XP Rawr MTRCB.

Even our Cardinal is encouraging students and teenagers to talk about that movie! rawr. All of you are so so so prejudiced! BOOOOO!

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Watched Chronicles of Narnia again with Kuya Michael earlier. haha. Still find Peter cute.:P
Remembered that he's 18 his name's William Moseley. Yes, William. Another reason why Dan would never like the name. Haha. First, Prince William, now him. Hehe.XP

Saw some new pictures of Skandar Keynes (Edmund) and though he's a year younger, cute padin. Hehe.:P

Don't worry Dan, you're cuter.;)

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I pray to every ounce of my being that they show The Da Vince Code this Friday. I am sooo dying to watch. The teaser trailer looked so good. I'm so gonna bite the head of the MTRCB officials if they decide not to show it here! Darn you! And that Ermita congress person! He was talking about how they shouldnt show it here because its gonna change the perspective of the people's mind towards Christianity! And after that, he said he doesn't know the story. Boooo.

Yes, I have read the book, and no, my beliefs about Jesus didn't change. It is just fiction. Eventhough I've watched documentaries about the timeline of Jesus and his descendants in National Geographic, I remain unmoved. My beliefs and my faith is still strong. Those who say that the movie is gonna change people's perspectives are just being prejudiced. If ever they change their beliefs, its not the movie, or the book, or Dan Brown's fault. It the person's fault for having faith that can be rattled easily. Baaah. Boooo you.XP

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Happy Mother's Day to every mother in the world.:)

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Haaa. What a day. Mum loved my gift. Haha. Was expecting otherwise because my gift to her is just a handmade flower pot and paper flowers. Good luck daw. Awww.:)

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Had this full-on freaky dream of somebody. :-X Ugh. Ugh. Ugh. Get off my head, or just.. stop thinking about me, kei? thanks.

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Was blog hopping, and saw this in Ate Thea's blog:
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Love never gives up.
Love cares more for others than for self.
Love doesnt want what it doesnt have.
Love doesnt strut.
Doesnt have a swelled head,
Doesnt force itself on other,
Isn't always "me first,"
Doesnt fly off the handle,
Doesnt keep score of the sins of others,
Doesnt revel when other grovel,
Takes pleasure in the flowering of truth,
Puts up with anything,
Trusts God always,
Always looks for the best,
Never looks back,
But keeps going to the end.

Love never dies.

The Message // Remix
The Bible in Contemporary Language
1 Corinthians 13
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Missing Dan more. Why can't I be your first and last?:-( *sighs*

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Brrrrr. Today had beeeen soooooo cold. Was screaming at the shower. Haha.

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Met up with my relatives in Glorietta today for dinner. Wow. I have many nieces and nephews na pala..XP Oh, and I met my cousin Bettina for the first time. She was really nice and she gave me a nice necklace. Ina and I played with her Dora doll while the adults were talking.XP I was seated at the "adults" only table. Omg. Im getting so old na.XP

Jared was tugging on my hair. rawr.:P He also gave me the sweetest bebe kiss ever.:P

My Lola's doing fine. She's actually recovering from alzheimers. Good eh?

Miss you dad.:)
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Updaaate. Haha.
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As you may have noticed, I changed my layout.:P It has this wizard of oz theme going on, and I dont know why I made this layout. haha. Maybe its because I do miss ms. elocution teacher..>:)

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Went to school today, didn't see Mandeee or Auds, but I saw jayce, se, cha, len, anj, and the other summer class people.

Mrs. Mags and Mr. Roque gave me and Minseun college applications for UP. So yeah, I'm gonna take a shot for the most dreaded University. If ever I do pass, hello headaches. Haha.

I'm feeling quite happy because the school will be the one's to process and file the application, and do the recommendations, sooo no more trips to Manila just for now.:)

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Wow. It seems just like yesterday when I first entered HS. Haha. Time flies by so fast. One blink and poof! I'm a senior already. :-( Huhu. I'll miss the school and my friends so much, but since many of us are planning to take up Nursing in UST (haha. go tigers>:]), it will probably be just another school year next year, only with more random people.

Haha.
Enough.
Im not even starting this school year, and I'm already looking forward for the next one.
Baaaaaad.

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Saw someone who looked like Dad in Sm a while ago. Boohoo.:-(
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Wow. Uber violent mood swing yesterday. Haha. Its a girl thing.XP
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Watched Uptown Girls yesterday again, and the ending song made me cry again.:-| It makes me remember my dad..wah. I miss you dad.:-(
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Molly Smiles

Daddy's little girl paints the world with her magic wand
Daddy's little child breathes new life to the morning time for me
Though we're apart, her thoughts follow me
When I come home, Molly smiles with the dawn
Molly smiles, and she radiates the glow around her halo
When she plays, Molly smiles
On a summer day, Molly smiles
A new day, Molly smiles

Daddy's little girl ties a ribbon around my heart
Daddy's little child waves goodbye to the ocean tide that sweeps me
Though we're apart, she's a part of me

Molly smiles with the dawn
Molly smiles and she radiates the glow around her halo
When she plays, Molly smiles
On a summer day, Molly smiles
A new day, Molly smiles

When I come home, Molly smiles with the dawn
Molly smiles and she radiates the glow around her halo
When she plays, Molly smiles
On a summer day, Molly smiles
A new day, Molly smiles

When the days have gone grey,
Nothing's wrong when Molly smiles
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Got touched by this line for some reason:
"All you do is take and take, and right now, I don't have anything to give you."

Haha. Ewan ko ba.XP
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Missing Dad, and Dan right now.
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Guys could be so dense sometimes. Grrrrrrrr. Rawr you.

yes, I wanted to spend time with you.

yes, its quite obvious that you just want to sleep rather than spend time with me.

yes, when i told you to just sleep, I was hoping that you'd say no, and that you'd spend time with me.

yes, I am having moodswings right now because of you. Rawr.
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I've been browsing through blogs, and I stumbled upon Mikee's blog.
Yes, Mikee, as in PBB Mikee. As I was reading his entries, I stumbled upon this :

"You're not a snowman unless you're made of snow.
You're not a fruit unless you have seeds.
You're not a ball unless you're round.

You're not an athlete until you have a sport.
You're not a lawyer until you've done a case.
You're not a politician until you win for a position.

You're not God unless you've done what He's done, and is doing what He's doing.

You're not smart unless you have the grades.
You're not rich unless you have the money.
You're not poor unless you're suffering.
You're not tough unless you've been in a fistfight.
You're not good unless you've done something good, or avoided something bad.

You haven't helped unless you've given something."

After reading that.. I was like.. "wow, he's a really deep thinker" but something about that post made me think. Oo, tama nga naman siya..

For the past years, I've been peeved out by people who has this thick air around their skulls, going around saying they're like this and that, but in reality, they're not. Sasabi sabi.. wala naman palang ipagmamalaki..

Words are losing their essence and meaning when people just say them out of carelessness, trying to make themselves look cool.

Music, Intelligence, Achievements, etc. Doesn't Make You Cool. The way you face life is the thing that makes you look cool. Actually, maybe not cool, but its something to be proud of. I mean, all of your achievements couldn't be achieved without you, and your perspectives, right?

Must be the challenges of life. Pushing you to do things in the bestest, yet not easiest ways possible, just to prove yourself.

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Why do people cheat on the ones they love? No, I am not talking about Dan, he is very loyal, and I know it. I am talking about a certain someone who have hurt my other someone. Hehe. Darn you man. *say that in a jamaican voice:P* raaar. I despise you for doing that. Aren't you contented? That person is very special. You must be too dumb to see that. Rar you.

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I love my bestfriend.:-) Nono.. not in a lesbian way, but in a sisterly way. We've been friends for almost 13 years already, my first true friend. Chi, if ever you're reading this, I wanna let you know that I love you so much girl.:)

..::+No.. I wasn't strangling her. I swear. Haha.XP +::..


..:Rebel "daw":..

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Gotta get my applications. Darn mum.XP
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I wanna go to school. Wait. Not yet. Hehe.
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Went shopping with Chi in Powerplant yesterday. Bought the 6th book in the Georgia Nicholson Series, And then He Ate my Boy Entrancers. Haha. Fully booked Bookstore is luuuurrrrvvve! So many books. I was in heaven. Haha. Anyways, we were looking for the Illustrated version of The Da Vinci Code, but sadly, theyre out of stock. Boohoo.XP I was reading the copy of angel's and demons which was placed under the table when the alarm when off.. So, I was like.. "Did I do that?" haha. Panic.

We discovered this uber yummy chocolate vanilla nougat bar in Candy Corner. haha. Heeeaaaven.XP

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Chi: Ayun oh.. yung St. Francis Square..
Me: Diba yun yung mataas na building?
Chi: Yeah..
Me: Hindi ko makita..XP

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We went to SM after and I bought craftsy stuff. I'm planning on giving my mom an origami flower bouquet this coming Mother's day.. Can someone teach me how to? Haha. Or just basic paper flower folding?XP

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I had a dream of my father last night..I miss him. I woke up crying. In May 19th, we will be celebrating his 8th death anniversary. I've already spent 8 years of my life without my father..
its making me so sad. Its very hard to have him gone because there are so many things in my life that I want him to be part of.

I remember crying my eyes out while watching What a Girl wants. You know that traditional Father-Daughter dance during the wedding? Yes, I cried, no, bawled in the theatre.. Surprisingly, I didn't feel embarassed when people started to stare.. my father isn't someone to be embarassed about.:-(

*sighs*

I miss you Dad.:-(

I'll always be your little angel princess, promise.:'-)
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Haha.. tagal ko na palang hindi naguupdate...XP
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Amanda gave me the URL to this site containing funny theories about Harry Potter. haha. Its so interesting because all of those are making sense to me. XP

Some theories and questions:

• Harry Potter is not going to become an Auror. He is not going to work for the Ministry of Magic. And no, he is not going to die.Harry Potter is going to be:THE DEFENSE AGAINST THE DARK ARTS TEACHER
• All those people that are "disappearing" - might they reappear as an army of Inferi in the last book?
• Malfoy-as-werewolf theory.he threatens people with Greyback, and we never did find out what that was on his arm, and his descriptions sometimes match Lupin's.
• Gleam of triumph = Pettigrew's debt to Harry? It's his hand that brought Voldemort back, and it could, like, stop working or something. Our other theory was... Harry being de-Horcrux-fied, right?

• Since Dumbledore died, will Harry's Patronus change to like a phoenix or something of that sort, or will it stay a stag?
• On RAB: either a) an elaborate scheme by Dumbledore to make Voldemort kill off one of his Death Eaters (with those initials) or b) Voldemort's house-elf named Rab, killed by house-elf magic for disobeying his master.

More? Check out the site. hehe.
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Haha. Its quite obvious that I'm still a potter Afficionado/a.XP I miss Dumbledore! haha. visit : http://dumbledoreisnotdead.com
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Haaa.. So freakin hot.XP

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