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Sunday, April 30, 2006
8:47 PM♥♥
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Went to see the movie Silent Hill yesterday with Chi and my kuya. Its like the first horror movie i've seen eversince my dad died. haha. Not really scary, though there were disgusting parts. Aaaah. The goryness and the morbidness.O_o Especially the janitor punctured all over and bound with the barbed wires. Gaaaaaaah. Kadiri-ness. Haha. Got entertained by the nurses slashing each other with those tetanus causing hospital tools. O-O haha. Chi was screaming.XP
Had a hard time understanding the movie, can someone explain it to me? My brother wasn't able to finish the game sooo.. I'm totally confused. aaah. Was the little girl reincarnated? XP
Anyways, I so want to watch alot of movies.
Scary Movie 4- the tripod and the baseball scene trailer was so funny.
Aquamarine- haha.. JoJo and the mermaid.XP Cute guys.XP
----- - Another movie by JoJo, forgot the title though.
Just My Luck- Lindsay Lohan, and the duke guy from princess diaries 2. Haha. I like him.XP
The Wild- reminds me of Madagascar. Cute Koala bear.XP
Over the hedge- another animal cartoon. haha.
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I have been talking in conyo language so much lately. Ahh.XP For those who don't know what conyo language is, its known as the colehiyala /filipina college girl language. Its a mix of tagalog and english (taglishXP) and uses the words so and like excessively. aaah. Its so irritating.XP
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My guitar's broken. SO sad.:-( My D-string snapped. Huhu. T_T
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Went to my grandparent's house in Cavite earlier. My grandmama's recovering! Yay.:-D She cried because she can't believe she remembers me.. She's got the alzeimher's disease. She was talking about things from her past, and how she saw my dad's ghost. O_o I'm so happy.:)
Haha. My cousin, whom we thought was gonna end up gay, got circumsised already. Haha.haha.haha.XP Ipagkalat ba..XP
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Missing Hun.=|
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Saturday, April 29, 2006
7:21 AM♥♥
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I am sick.
Gaah.T_T
I have this gut feeling in my stomach that triggers my puking reflex.
Its painful.:-(
I only slept for 6 hours..
My eyes are as chinky as hell..
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Ah, the symptoms of a broken heart. :-(
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"Just can't find a way to go of you.."
"I gave you the best.. I gave you the best that I had.. but you passed on my letters and passed on the best that I had.."
"One last cry.. before I leave it all behind.."
"You take a piece of me with you.."
"Shoulda..woulda..coulda are the last words of a fool..."
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Friday, April 28, 2006
9:08 PM♥♥
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[edit..]
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I watched PBB a while ago.. and got touched by what Bam said.
"You don't fall in love with somebody for a reason, because if that reason's gone, then you wont love that person anymore. And that's not love."
True. True. Sadly, its true.
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2:43 PM♥♥
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Why is it when you know that you're doing the right thing, other people oppose you?
Does that mean that you're right, and I'm wrong?
Why are we given conscience if we don't use it?
Why do we stay even though we hurt, and feel that all of you are being trampled and considered inferior?
Whats the connection between myself, you, and other people?
Why do we have to gain respect? Why do people force you to believe something you dont want to believe in?
Does that mean you don't need to be with those people and stand up for what you believe in?
Why can't you just go find somebody who thinks exactly just like you, or shares your perspective on things?
Why do we choose to be hurt?
Why do we stay?
Why can't I leave?
Why do I have to defend myself all the time, when I know, without a single doubt, that I'm right?
Why do they call me close minded, when all I do is think about what I want to happen in my life?
Am I not allowed to think for myself?
When I base my decisions on a stereotypical one, does that make me stupid? Inferior?
Why do you say its stereotypical when nobody thinks like that now?
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If there is one thing I could be proud of right now, I'd say its how I could stand up for what I believe in, no matter what people say to try and break that down. Its how I grew up.
Don't you dare question that, because I never questioned how you grew up, and accepted you and your family without any hesitations. I know I have no right to question that, and because I love you, I ACCEPTED IT. You have no right to tell me to be open minded, because you are pretty close minded yourself. You have no right to tell me what's gonna happen to me just because of the way I want to live my life. Respect me, just as much as I respect you.
I've been there for you and supported your decisions, so maybe, you should support mine. Don't try and take away those who are important to me, and tell me lets see who'd do better. I don't want to compete with you, or with anybody else. I do my best to prove something to myself. That I'm not like others, and that I am truly deserving of what I have now.
I would not force you to think about this, because I know you'd probably just think its stupid.
I am not a stereotype. And definitely not the type of girl you see in your school, or in your town, or in your country. Remember that.
Don't compare me to them, because there is no comparison. NOT ONE.
I am not saying that I am better than you, or than anyone else, for I know I am not.
Nobody, not even my mom, or my dad, or all those things "I believe in" would stop me from doing what I want to do, or what I want to happen. Not even YOU.
I'm not gonna listen to you because I'm tired of listening and getting my dreams trampled.
I'm gonna be a doctor. I'm gonna live a life thats so sweet and so pure.
If I get to marry, then I'm gonna make sure its someone who respects me and what I believe it.
If we get to have kids, theyre gonna grow up just like me and their father, sans all the hurt and the pain.
If they decide to swerve the wrong way, then I would take all the blame.
Happy?
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.Paalam.Na.Aking.Mahal.
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Thursday, April 27, 2006
9:35 PM♥♥
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[edit...]
I was out with my best friend chi.. and our conversation somehow dragged to the topic of tonsilitis and tonsils.
Me: Naku..prone pa naman ako sa tonsilitis, baka tangalan ako ng tonsils.
Chi: Ah.. Tingin mo pag tinangalan ka ng tonsils magbabago ka ng boses?
Me: *tawa ng malakas*
Seryosong tanong yun ah..XP
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Chi: Naalala mo yung sara sara princesang game?
Me: Oo naman!
Chi: Sara Sara Princesa!
Me: Laviña Laviña inggitera!
Chi: Lotti Lotti iyakin!
Chi: Emenguard Emenguard, bugnutin!
Me: Sino si emenguard? Emenguard ba talaga yun?
Chi: Oo..*sabay ulit na naman ng song..*
*tawa kaming dalawa*
Chi: Sino yung teacher na masungit?
Me: Ah.. si Miss Minchin.
Chi: Si Miss Minchin ay bata pa, um, ah, um, ah, ah!
Me: Diba ibang game yun?
*tawa*
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Shucks. Anababaw namin. Haha.
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Kambal tuko kami.:)
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5:34 PM♥♥
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Surveey
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1. Inaaway mo ba yung guard sa gate niyo pag di
ka pinapapasok?
+ Nope. Si yaya aaway. Joke. Haha.
2. Lagi ka bang nalelate?
+ Nope. Im atleast 45 minutes early.XP
3. Complete uniform ka ba lagi?
+ ayoko magvest. haha. babay vest. Hello blazer.XP
4. Sumusunod ka ba lagi sa mga school rules?
+ nope. magaling na miss mayor. haha
5. Kumakanta ka ba ng Pambansang Awit at
School Hymn?
+ yes
6. Active ka ba sa klase?
+ yep.
7. Mababa ba ang IQ mo o mataas?
+ erm, average.
8. Nakikipagdaldalan ka ba habang naglelesson
ang teacher?
+ haha. ofcourse.
9. Hinaharass mo ba ang mga teacher niyo?
+ nope.
10. Napapunta ka na ba sa prefect of discipline's
office dahil sa kabalbalan?
+ nope, hopefully, never.
11. Napahiya ka na ba sa klase?
+ oo naman!
12. Napahiya ka na ba ng teacher sa klase?
+ yes.
13. Gumagawa ka ba ng assignments o copya
+ gumagawa naman..XP
14. Kumakain ka ba tuwing break?
+ recess, minsan. lunch,yeah..papagalitan ako ni dan eh.
15. Ano ang first line ng School Hymn ninyo?
+ Adolore Ad Gloriam.
16. Naging medalist ka na ba?
+ corny ob. wala pa. gradeschool, yes.
17. Nangotong ka na ba sa kaklase m?
+ no way.
18. Natutulog ka ba sa klase?
+ nope. tutulo laway ko eh. >:)
19. Pumapasok ka ba sa ibang room kahit na may
klase sila?
+ pag pinapatawag ng teacher.
20. Gusto mo ba ang mga patakaran ninyo
sanyong eskwelahan?
+ okay lang.
21. Nagtetext ka ba habang nagkaklase kayo?
+ cellphones aren't allowed.
22. Nagdadala ka ba ng mga pagkain sa room
niyo?
+ yep. pasaway ako.
23. Ano ang pinakamahirap na subject para sa
iyo?
+ last year? chemistry. *cringe*
24. Natawag mo na bang "sir" ang ma'am nyo, at
"ma'am" ang sir niyo?
+ haha. yes.
25. Ano ang pangalan ng eskuwelahan mo?
+ operation brotherhood montessori inc. nakanang. completo. haha.
26. Naaksidente ka na ba sa school? anong
klaseng aksidente?
+ yes! robert kasi..tsk..
27. Ano ang laging kinakain mong pagkain sa
canteen?
+ candy. haha.
28. in general, love mo highschool?
+ Ohhh yeah!
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1.What's your initials?
*~ dtz
2.Your birthday?
*~ 11.17.90
3.What size is your shoes?
*~ 9
4.What are you listening to right now?
*~ videogame sound effects.
5.What was the last thing you ate?
*~ halo-halo
6.Last person you hugged?
*~ chi?
7.How is the weather right now?
*~ hot.
8.Who was the last person you talked to
on the phone?
*~ Jv.
9.Wanna marry someone?
*~ yes.
10.Are you in 'okay' mood?
*~ yep
11.Do you want children?
*~ yes.
12.Do u drink?
*~ anything as long as its not alcoholic.
13.Ever get so drunk u don't remember
the entire night?
*~ nope.
14.Hair color?
*~ dark brown
15.Eye color?
*~chocolate brown
16.Long or short hair?
*~ long hair.
17.Fave holiday?
*~ Christmas
18.Fave season?
*~ winter na lang kahit walang ganun dito. haha.
19.Ever cried for no reason?
*~ haha, yes.
20.How many mirrors are in your room?
*~ 4?
21.Where you go on Saturday nite?
*~ depends on mum
22.What's your favorite song?
~ As of now? erm.. So sick- Neyo and Scotty Doesnt know- lustra
23.Have u ever stolen from a store?
*~ haha.. when i was younger. about 4-5 years old. gave it to my dad.XP
24.Do u enjoy the sensational taste of
starbucks?
*~ yes
25.Does the word "horcrux" mean
anything to u?
*~ aaaaa. I hate you snape!
26.Do u have any friends of the gay
preference?
*~ yes.
27.Do u love anyone now?
*~ yes.
28.Is cheese like the best food ever, or
what?
*~ not really.XP
29.What books are u reading at the
moment?
*~ The Lost Templar
30.Piercings?
*~ yep, 3.
31.Do u have a tattoo?
*~ no
32.Clubbing?
*~ no
33.Naked?
*~ no.
34.Fave movie?
*~ As of now.. erm.. Ice Age 2? hahaha.
35.Fave football team?
*~ -
36.What were you doing before filling
this out?
*~ chatting.
37.Any pets?
*~ wabbit
38.Dogs or cats?
*~ both, though i should avoid cats.XP
39.Have you ever been caught doing
something you weren't supposed to do?
*~ yes
40. o_O
41.Who would you like to see right now?
*~ Danny Boy. Haha
42.Are you friends with any of your exs?
*~ haha. no comment na lang.:)
43.Have you ever fired a gun?
*~ pellet.
44.Right or left-handed?
*~ right.
45.If you could be with someone right
now who would it be?
*~ Dan. So I could hug him while he's sleeping.:)
46.How many pillows do you sleep with?
*~ 6. haha.
47.Are you missing someone?
*~ yes
48.Do you still watch cartoons on
Saturday mornings?
*~ haha. the simpsons.
49.Are you hiding something from
someone?
*~ yes.
50.Most annoying thing about you?
*~ I'm annoying.XP
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mcdonalds or jolibee?
:: mcdo
day or night?
:: night
mountain or beach?
:: both
mad or sad?
:: mad.
friendster or myspace?
:: friendster
chocolates or candy?
:: chocolates..
cueshe or hale?
:: hale. haha. yabyu champ.XP
xbox 360 or ps3?
:: ps3.
new york or paris?
:: been to nyc, its sccaaaary. paris, with dan.:)
lindsay or hillary?
:: hilary. no to stick thin people. haha.
love or money?
:: love?
smart or rich? (girl/guy)
:: smart.
globe or smart?
:: globe
* *is/are your..
-is your tongue talented?
:: yes! haha. (oo na lang.:D)
-is your room clean?
::yup!
-is your mom at home?
:: nope
-is your school nice?
:: erm.. ok lang.
-are your teachers nice?
:: ok lang..XO
-is your house big?
:: average
-is your computer big?
:: haha. normal sized
* *do you..
-do you drive?
:: not yet allowed.:(
-do you shower?
:: yes.
-do you listen to the radio often?
:: no. i only do when im in the car.
* *favorites..
-favorite band
:: as of now.. Rooney and hard fi.
-favorite football player
:: David Beckham! go 23! haha.
-favorite person
:: dad and dan.
-favorite food
:: blueberry cheesecake and pasta and pizza.XP
-favorite hangout place
:: atc, home.
-favorite resto
:: the W.
-favorite tv show
:: Friends. :-(
-favorite subject
:: I enjoy history.
-favorite teacher
:: sir roque padin.
-favorite brand of shoes
:: salad. nine west. aerosoles.
-favorite brand of clothes
:: self-esteem.
-favorite store
:: powerbooks. haha.
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01 what is your 2nd name?
>> Therese
02 what is your hair color ?
>> dark brown
03 where do you study ?
>>obmci
04 how old are you?
>> 15
05 where could you be seen?
>> At home.
06 are you angry at anyone?
>> nope.
07 who was the last one who called you?
>> JV
08 who is the last one who messaged you?
>> Chesca
09 who was the last one who added you here?
>> Angelica
10 who was the last person who hurt you
verbally?
>> erm..dan? (sowie:'[ )
11 how many people are in your list?
>> 470+
12 do you talk with people you don't know?
>> Yes and no.
13 do you love shopping
>> heck yeah.
14 what is your favorite color ?
>> babyblue
15.do you miss someone?
>> yes, i mishy dan.:P
16 who do you like to meet?
>> Prince William. haha.
17 do you buy CDs of your favorite band/artist?
>> if there's extra money.
18 when was the last time you drank any alcoholic
drink?
>> erm.. January 28, 2006.
19 what was that alcoholic drink?
>> Rum. aah.XP
20 how many messages do you have in your
inbox in friendster?
>> *shrugs*
21 when was the last time you drank coffee?
>> last week?
22 have you entered a bar?
>> yeah
23 where was the last place you went before
answering this survey?
>> music room
24 go for what?
>> erm. yeah. ok:P
25 how many fingers do you have?
>> 10. toes yung sa feet diba?
26 do you have people who adds you up and
doesn't mind talking to you?
>> yep.
27 do people message you to add them up?
>> luckily, no.
28 what was the last thing you ate?
>>chocolate.
29 what's the last thing you drank?
>>water.
30 what song are you listening to?
>> hard to beat.
31 last person you added in your adress book?
>> Don't have one
32 what do you feel when people compliment you?
>> Flattered?
33 do you think kids like you?
>> well, those one's who know me do.XO
34 do you chat with foreigners?
>> haha. Dan?XP
35 do you still chat with them?
>> haha. yep.
36 last person who you shared stuff with?
>> Dan
37 is there anyone you want to say mean things?
>> nope
38 what are they?
>> None.
39 are you having fun today?
>> pede naaaa
40 why is that so?
>> im quite bored.
41 have you done it?
>> Done what?
42 what is it about anyway?
>> You're Weird.
43 have you ever admired someone eversince and
you're still admiring that person?
>> yeah.
44 do you love your school?
>> i guess.
45 why?
>> because its my 2nd home. nakanang!
46 when was the last time you felt sick?
>> last week
47 what were you feeling?
>> toothache. sucks.
48 do you think you are attractive?
>> er, no. haha.
49 do you have any suitors?
>> haha. 1 loyal one.XO
50 what will you do after answering this?
>> Watch tv.
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Gaaah. Ahm Bowd.
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Wednesday, April 26, 2006
9:01 PM♥♥
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Filipinos are bearers and upholders of the greatest values ever known to mankind.
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"Ang kabataan ang kinabukasan ng ating bayan."
- Dr. Jose Rizal, Philippine National Hero
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I've been watching PBB Teen Edition [Yes, I watch that. Oh, Angal?/:) ] and I have to say, I'm quite surprised.
Tonight's episode was so dramatic. I know that many teenagers in this country are having a troubled childhood just because of the type of environment were exposed in, but watching those 12 teens surprised me.
They have only spent 3 days together in that house, and they have already opened up to each other more than I could do regarding my long time friends and family.
When they showed the part when the 6 boys was talking about the conflict between Mikki and Olyn, the way they expressed their thoughts in a mature way was ..was..whoa. It was like theyre grown ups, considering theyre only what..16-18 years old? Some weren't even scared to cry, even if they know it would be shown nationwide, or worldwide.
I was telling my yaya how great it would be if my male classmates think like that. I mean, in our class, when a girl cries, or when somebody cries, they wouldn't care, except for some.
Wouldn't the world be a better place if everybody holds concern for each and everyone, regardless of social or financial status, or race?
I don't exactly know why I'm talking like this, or why I'm in this weird "world peace" kind of thinking. Maybe its because, maybe, just maybe, its time that we snap out of the trance that this government is making us believe, and think, not only for ourselves, but for the entire humanity.
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Oh geez. My emo and super sensitive side had just been released. Haha.
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I miss my friends.
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Happy Birthday Arn-Arn!
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Tuesday, April 25, 2006
9:23 PM♥♥
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" I feel it in my heart but I don't show it."
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Monday, April 24, 2006
12:15 PM♥♥
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Geeez. Asar. DSL had its downtime yesterday.. wasn't able to update yesterday, not that there's something nice to talk about. Gaaad, asar.
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Yep, it was our 13th month yesterday. Nothing special. As in nothing. NOOOOTHING. Bleeeeeeh!
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Saturday, April 22, 2006
9:47 PM♥♥
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Just got home from Glorietta. We went there because I have a dentist appointment. haha. I asked my mum to have my teeth filled already, para hindi na tumagal.. XP Got my teeth cleaned first, then may appointment pa daw sila.. so we just ate after that, and went back at 4 pm.
Then shopping. Haha. Bought 2 pairs of white and blue capiz earrings and capri pants in Goldcrest, and saw Auds and Tita Lani, then we went to Zara. Geez.
Zara reminds me of the the American Eagle Outfitters store in Monteclair Mall in West Covina, only that the prices in that store is much much more cheaper. I mean, I bought a top for 895 Pesos(money killer. haha.). There's this cutesy wootsie top with a guitar and a skull print on it, and I sooo want to buy it. *MUUUUUM! haha* Oh well, control. Hehe. Their black section is fabulous. XP Oh and there's this tee with an ostrich on it! so. so. cute. XP
Geez, I missed shopping in Macy's, Nordstrom, etc. Gaaah. I miss US already.:-( Mum reminded us about our US trip next year.. Hello? its like a year away. haha. It got me excited though, Uncle Danny's taking us to Florida, haha, hello Disney World, and that cutesy hotel in Universal Studios; and Washington DC. Ick. As much as I loved studying American History, I am so not thrilled about going there.
My mum was yakking about how much she wanted to go see the White house. Ick. George Bush. Ick. Ick. I think that man drinks some of the oil imported in that country.XP Haha. No offense to Mr. Whiteboy.:) yes Dan, you.
Could they just drop me off in Albuquerque? haha. Im quite sure Dan would take good care of me.:-D hehe. Or just leave me in Auntie's house,sans the fire alarm incident, I think I'd be better off with that. Haha.
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I saw this cutesy maltese pup in the mall a while ago. Rawr. I want one. Or a shihtsu would do.:D Oh and and a nice bouquet of red roses would do Darling.:) haha. Just kidding Dan. Advance 13 monthsary. Haha. ( advance 1 year and 1 month is waaaay too long to type! heck.. i just did type it. gaaaah.XP) So what if I bought you something?/:) I love you so much!:)
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Im getting dizzier by the second. Homaygas. As much as I love glasses, I just..dont like wearing them. My corrector glasses traumatized me.XP haha.
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"Mahal kita, pero hindi mo lang alam." -Lagi mo akong Dinedeadma; Rocksteady
"Love me, love me, say that you love me"- Lovefool; The Cardigans
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Wednesday, April 19, 2006
3:21 PM♥♥
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Finaaaallllyy! naayos din pc ko! haha.
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Thursday:
-Visita Iglesia after visiting grandmama and family.:)
Friday:
-Watched Cenaculo with Ya, Chi, and tita malou.
Saturday:
-Rockwell, Greenhills. Bought new phone.. 7260.. hindi ko parin maiwan lumang phone ko. masyado ko siyang mahal. haha.
-Away kami ni mama.
Sunday:
Church..tulog
Away padin.
Monday:
-away padin kami ni mama.
Tuesday:
-Audrey's back from Bicol! Thanks for the pasalubong dude. hehe.
-CAT practice namin ni chi. haha.
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Grabe. I missed my pc so much. My brother crashed it again eh. asar.XP
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Thursday, April 13, 2006
10:54 PM♥♥
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Whatta day. I havent been in this kind of nirvana for a long time na.
We went to visit my sick Grandmama. She's got Alzeimer's Disease and had a brain stroke recently. My aunt came and told us to visit because its possible that she's just waiting for us, since were her favorite son's family. When I saw her, I wanted to cry, and I saw that she was about to too. Sad. I love my Grandmama so much.
After that, I saw my kakulitan cousins Jerome, and Carlo, after almost 8 years na. Wow. They grew so much. I missed them alot too. I'm glad my bestfriend, Chi, was there too. Carlo kept on tickling me and Chi, and we were just having fun. Also found out that Jerome is taking up Nursing in St. Dominique's College and is an incoming sophomore na. I always thought that he's just one year ahead. It looks like were gonna start a nursing generation in the family.
We browsed through picture albums, and saw my Dad sporting his afro hair way back in the 70's. Haha. Cute Father. Puffball. Hehe.
Chi made this funny comment regarding my father and his parents.. oh geez. Cheetah talagaaa.XP
I'm so glad my mother is in peace with my family on my father's side. Whew. Sana tuloy tuloy na. Thanks Dad for enlighting their minds, especially mum's!:)
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After that, we went to do our traditional Visita iglesia; ill post the info tomorrow. im so tired na. eheh.
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Monday, April 10, 2006
5:05 PM♥♥
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Love could be a splendid thing, but it could be a horrible thing too. I've been watching this show which tells the story of abused women. They were abused by the men they love and trust. Some physically, some emotionally.
If you ask me, its easier to deal with physical pain, since it fades in time, but emotional pain, it leaves a horrifying scar which time itself couldnt heal. Other's may choose not to escape, and blame themselves for those stuff happening to them when its really not. Theyre paying the price for something they didnt do. Poor people really.
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Still feeling sorry for those people, but still feeling sorry for myself. Been singing Lea Salonga's song in Les Miserables On My Own, and yes, I do feel really sad, though I've been hanging out with Chi and Audrey today. Now that I'm alone once again in my small little world, my mind is deeply troubled with morbid images of my angel, lying there, dead. I know I probably sound like a whacko, but I'm scared. I'm scared for the sole reason that if he dies, a big part of me is gonna die with him, just like what happened when my father passed away.
Yes we fought due to some personal matters. It both kills us when we fight. Both says something hurtful to the other. Both cries, hoping that its not the end of something so special.
Ewan ko ba, the pain sometimes gets so untolerable that we just couldn't help but seek a way out. Eventually, one gets so worried about the other, just like how I'm worrying now.:-(
Love will probably find a way.
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Like what I said earlier, I was with Chi and Auds earlier, and we watched this American Pie like movie called Eurotrip. Its kinda..erm.. has explicit and censored parts, so we used the picture of my brother to cover the tv screen.XP Haha. It was funny.XP
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There was this part in the movie where this song (scotty doesn't know..) was played about this guy and about how his girlfriend was cheating on him with another guy for a year already. I dont know.. I got really irritated..xp I shouldn't take it personally, I know since its just a movie and all, but I just freakin hate girls like that, well, people like that generally.
I mean, they get this really great and amazing person in their life who's practically trying to give them all the love in the world and satisfy each and every need they have, and they just throw it away to satisfy the rush of the desires of their flesh. Gah.XP Stupid people.
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Its not so bad, youre only the best I've ever had. Just the best I've ever had.
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Just.. gave him.. a reason to.. He almost..almost.. almost..
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I cant bear it.. i cant..
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1:54 PM♥♥
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"You Found Me"
Is this a dream?
If it is
Please don't wake me from this high
I've become comfortably numb
Until you opened up my eyes
To what it's like
When everything's right
I can't believe
You found me
When no one else was lookin'
How did you know just where I would be?
Yeah, you broke through
All of my confusion
The ups and the downs
And you still didn't leave
I guess that you saw what nobody could see
You found me
You found me
So, here we are
That's pretty far
When you think of where we've been
No going back
I'm fading out
All that has faded me within
You're by my side
Now everything's fine
I can't believe
You found me
When no one else was lookin'
How did you know just where I would be?
Yeah, you broke through
All of my confusion
The ups and the downs
And you still didn't leave
I guess that you saw what nobody could see
You found me
You found me
And I was hiding
'Til you came along
And showed me where I belong
You found me
You found me
When no one else was lookin'
How did you know?
How did you know?
You found me
When no one else was lookin'
How did you know just where I would be?
Yeah, you broke through
All of my confusion
The ups and the downs
And you still didn't leave
I guess that you saw what nobody could see
You found me
(You found me)
(When no one else was lookin')
You found me
(How did you know just where I would be?)
You broke through
All of my confusion
The ups and the downs
And you still didn't leave
I guess that you saw what nobody could see
The good and the bad
And the things in between
You found me
You found me
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I heard this song and immediately thought of Dan. Haaay. Ewan ko. Im just so thankful that he's there, and will always be there.:) I love you hunny!:)
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12:26 PM♥♥
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Haaaay. Soo hot. I wanna go to California or Hawaii.XP
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I watched this show in Travel and Living which showed the different, most popular catacombs in the world, and there's this really cool catacomb in Scotland, I think. The Catacombs of the Capuchin Monks.. Its so pretty.:D There's this artist who used the bones of the deceased monks to make this museum like thingie. Its filled with tons of bones, crafted artistically and arranged to make shapes. Now.. Im not really a big fan of skeletons, but its really pretty. Its said to be an interpretation of death in a more postive manner.XP
Oh.. and there's place.. I forgot the name though.. which was used as underground hiding places of christians in the ancient times. Its located on mountaintops, and is covered by snow. Its so pretty! Its like a fantasy world.. somehow looking like Narnia during winter. The best way to see the city is by riding a hot air balloon, though Im deathly afraid of heights, I wanna go there so bad. Waah.:-(
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Sunday, April 09, 2006
2:05 PM♥♥
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Disappointments. disappointments. gaaah.XP
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We went to Glorietta yesterday for my dentist appointment. After having my teeth x-rayed, I found out that I need to get 8 of my teeth filled. Haha.XP Hoooboi. Oh well.
We watched this fashion show last night, and there was this one male model who looked like Dan. Haha. Cutie..er. talking about Dan.XP anyways. We looked at the Columns Condo's showcase yesterday; Mum was planning to buy 2 units for me and Kuya. Gah. So expensive! The loft type was about 7 M, and the flat type was about 5 M. Wag na noh. haha.
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Holy week already! Lets all be solemn and stay at home.:)
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Friday, April 07, 2006
9:18 PM♥♥
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New layout and navbar! haha. Sobrang pinaghirapan ko yan!XP
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Waaaah! Ang sakit sakit ng ngipin ko!:'-( Sobra.. naiiyak na ako sa sakit! huhuhuhuhu!:-(
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I wanna go to California!:-( The heat is enough to make me cry more. Huhuhuhu.
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Wednesday, April 05, 2006
10:24 PM♥♥
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Homaygas. Im so bored. I miss Dan already.:-D
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i FEAR:
[x] the dark
[ ] staying single
[ ] getting married
[x] being a parent(i mean, right now?heck no.)
[x] giving birth
[ ] being myself in front of others
[ ] open spaces
[ ] closed spaces(insufficiently ventilated)
[ ] heights
[ ] cats
[ ] dogs
[ ] birds
[x] spiders and/or other insects
[ ] driving or being in cars
[ ] flying
[ ] being put to sleep (anesthesia &
hypnosis)
[ ] flowers or other plants
[ ] being touched
[ ] fire
[ ] water
[ ] the ocean
[ ] pools
[ ] failure
[ ] success
[ ] germs
[ ] thunder/lightning
[ ] frogs/toads
[ ]mice/rats
[x] jumping from high places
[ ] snow
[ ] rain
[ ] wind
[ ] cemeteries
[ ] clowns
[ ] large crowds
[x] demons or evil
[ ] crossing bridges
[ ] death
[ ] hell
[ ] heaven
[x] being robbed
[x] being sexually assulted
[ ] men
[ ] women
[x] having great responsibility
[x] doctors, including dentists
[ ] tornadoes
[ ] hurricanes
[x] being punished
[x] diseases, including cancer and STD's
[ ] snakes
[x] sharks
[ ] dinosaurs
[ ] Friday the 13th
[ ] poverty
[ ] ghosts
[ ] halloween
[ ] school
[ ] trains or railroads
[ ] fear
[x] being alone
[x] losing my friends
[x] being blind to things
[ ]being deaf
[ ] growing up
[x] being murdered in my sleep
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1.Do you know anyone's friendster pasword?
.. yep.
2. Do you think ur love life right now will last long?
.. yes:)
3. Are u an emo person?
.. haha. yeah.
4. If u had one last breath to say something to someone u love what would u say?
.. I love you and always will.
5. Do you believe in love at first sight?
.. Yes?
6. Ever felt so jealous of your friend?
.. jealous in what way?XP
7. What was the last thing you did?
.. breathe.
8. Who is right next to you?
.. no one.
9. Who was the last person you ate with?
.. myself.XP
10. How many times was your page been view?
.. er..i dunno.
11.How's the weather right now?
.. freakin hot.
12.Last person you called today?
.. Audrey.
13. Last person who called you?
.. Mommy.
14. Last song you sang?
.. Darna.XP
15. Last time you danced?
.. this afternoon.XP
16. Lost a friendship over something stupid?
.. i guess..
17. Smoke?
.. no, not planning to.
18. Dumped someone before?
.. yes.XP
19. Been really depressed before?
.. yes.
20. Faked being sick to miss school?
.. yes.>:)
21. What time did you wake up today?
.. 6 am.
22. Current taste?
.. tootpastey mint.XP
23. Do you like the person who sent you this?
.. er. yeah?
24. What are you wearing right now?
.. tank top and shorts.
25. Are you too shy to ask anyone out?
.. haha. takenXP
26. What is the first thing you notice about the opposite sex?
.. smile.
27.where are u now?
.. home
28.WHAT DATE IS IT?
.. 04.05.06
29.WHAT TIME DID U WAKE UP?
.. ankulit a.. 6 am.
30.DID U GO SOMEWHERE YESTERDAY?
.. nope.
31. WHAT DID U DO THERE?
.. XP
32. how old are u?
.. 15
33. ARE U MATURE OR IMMATURE?
.. depends.
34. WHAT DO U CALL UR MOM & DAD? ~
.. ma, and papa.
35. ARE U AN ONLY CHILD?
.. no
36.WHERE DO U GO SHOPPING?
.. glorietta.
37. DO U LIKE YOUR SCHOOL?
.. yes.
38. DO U LIKE BOOKS?
.. haha. yeah!
39. DO U WANT TO GET MARRIED?
.. yes i do, but not now.
40. TO WHOM?
.. Dan:D
41.ARE U SPOILED?
.. dan's spoiling me.XP
42.WHATS THE MOST FLATTERING COMPLIMENT U EVER GOT?
.. "You're everything I want and love." haha.
43.ONLY GIRL/BOY IN THE FAMILY?
.. yeah..unica hija.XP
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10:31 AM♥♥
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I am not controlling my own life. Don't get me confused, I want to, but they just wouldn't give me the reins. I hate it. I hate it. I hate it. I hate it because they don't stop and admire what I've done and achieved.. and just proceed into those hurtful "criticisms". Whats with the " "'s? Criticisms are said to help people improve on their weaknesses. My mother's criticism? They'd make you change your whole perspective on life and make your self esteem drop into its lowest point.. Yes. I'm not exaggerating. She's like that. And I hate it. But I love her. Confusing. I just want to get along with my family for once and not be known as the black sheep, because I know I'm not. I'm kinder and much much more nicer than any of our family members. I got it mostly from my father's side, and its one of those simple God-given blessings. Haha.XP
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Don't you just hate it when you have to pretend that you're happy just so other people won't see how sad you and your situation is and just pity you? I do.
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Anyyyways. I watched this movie last night in HBO. It was..er.. not really sure if this is the exact title, it was called, "Real Women Have Curves". It's so cute. and sad. It's about this Latin -American girl named Ana, played by America Ferrera, who alo played the role of Carmen in the Sisterhood of the Travelling Pants, who solved her weight problem by accepting who she is and loving it. Haha. its so cute talaga.
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For my number 1 blog reader (you know who you are:D):
I love you! I miss you! Learn more tagalog words for me will you? XP
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Tuesday, April 04, 2006
4:18 PM♥♥
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Saw this in Ate Pat's Blog:
"I want a guy..
Who can wrestle with me and let me win, Who I can talk to about anything, Who laughs at my jokes, Who puts my cold hands in his warm hoodie pockets, Who says I love you & means it, Who will kiss me in the rain, Who calls even when he doesn't want to talk, Who I will have many inside jokes with, Who knows that I say things but don't always mean them, Who can tell me his problems, Who will listen to me talk, Who doesn't think he's "too cool" for anything, Who gives me his sweat shirt and doesn't expect to get it back, Who knows my favorite color, song, car, perfume and favorite movie, Who will shake my dad's hand and look my mom in the eye, Who knows my full name -- first, middle and last, Who will know when something is wrong, Who will kiss me and tell me I'm beautiful, Who will hold me & kiss my cheek, Who will brag about me to all of his friends, Who always smells good, Who would beat the shiit out of someone if they called me fat, ugly, or a slut, Who would teach me to surf but not get mad when I didn't get it, Who can always make me laugh even if I'm in the worst mood ever, Who would pick flowers for me, and always know he has a shoulder I can lean on, Someone I can trust...
I want a guy who would never break my heart."
ewan ko ba.. natamaan ako..haha..:-C
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Bakit na lang kasi ganito eh..
Minsan na nga lang ako humiling para sa isang bagay..
hindi pa mabigay..
kahit na ibinibigay ko lahat ng makakaya ko..
wala pa din..
my efforts go unaapreciated..
always..
tao din naman ako..
napapagod..
nanghihina..
nasasaktan..
nanghihinayang..
kung bakit sa lahat ng tao..
ikaw pa..
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Monday, April 03, 2006
4:22 PM♥♥
I'm spoiled by your love boy.
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Hooboi.
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I just came into a realization.. that if you love somebody else, you shouldn't let that person go, not unless that person feels differently about you na.. I mean, if you love somebody, why should you let go? Love is all about taking risks. If your reason of letting go is because you get hurt too much, well, grow up and understand that life isn't a bed of roses, and that no matter how perfect you think your loved one is, he/she isn't.
You're bound to get hurt at one point in time. If your special someone really loves you, its most likely that what he/she did wasn't intentional. I mean, think about this. Would you intentionally hurt someone you love? Ofcourse not. You can't. Love nga eh. When you fall in love, you're giving a piece of yourself away. If you hurt that person whom you gave that piece to, then you'd be most likely hurting yourself.
Unless youre a masochist, then you wouldn't gamble yourself getting hurt, ayt?
Don't try pushing that person away, because you know that your world would probably crash on you if you lose your special someone. There is a reason why that person is with you, and not with other people. He/she chose to be with you, nothing else.
If you think that that person isn't giving you what you deserve, you're probably looking at things the wrong way. Stop focusing on the bad points of your relationship, and smile when you think of the good ones. You and your sweetie would live in a much more better place if you do so.
A tried and tested love is the best, because its stable already. Once you know all your strengths and weaknesses already, you'd be finding ways on how to improve and where you should use those improvements.. oh diba?:D
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Haha. Bakit na lang ganun? I sound like a relationship guru for some reason. 0_o
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I miss my hunny. I love my hunny. I want to be with my hunny. Hunny hunny hunny hunny.
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Sunday, April 02, 2006
9:30 PM♥♥
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Im boooooowwwwd.
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Answer na nga lang ako ng surveys..
Got the first one fromAngel's Blog and the rest from friendster na.. hehe.XP
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1.Latest na narealize mo?
-- Pag taken ka.. friends look up to you as a relationship guru..weird.
2. Dapat gawin pag nalulungkot?
-- Read books.
3. Any quotes bout LOVE?
-- Love has no happy endings, because it never ends.
4.Favorite food?
-- Pasta and chicken..XP
5. Favorite Place to Be?
-- in the solace of my own room
6. Whats the title of the song that's stuck in your head right now?
-- Ugly-Sugababes & If ever you're in my arms again-Peabo Bryson
7. Pangarap mong summer get-away trip?
-- Albuquerque? hehe. probably sa caribbean.
8. Isang bagay na hinding hindi mo tatanggihan?
--si Dan. Yes, siya lang. Haha. Mahiyain akong tao..kahit hindi obvious.XP
9. Masayang libangan kapag umuulan?
-- Staring out of the 3-A classroom.:)
10. Isang bagay na pag-iipunan mo nang husto?
-- Laptop. Quite positive naman na hindi pagagamit sakin yung ipon ko..XP
11. Gagawin mo sa susunod mong birthday?
-- *shrugs*
12. Hindi mo makayanan?
-- fights namin ni dan, or ng friends ko.
13. Gusto mong panoorin sa sine?
-- She's the Man (wah, hindi ko naabutan!) just friends (wah, manda kasi. hehe.XP)
14. Do you love cooking?
-- I guess.XP
15.Paano ka ma-badtrip?
-- Super quiet mode with muttering of curses under my breath. hehe.
16. Matagal ka ba maligo?
-- Nope. 30 minutes max.
17.kumakain ka ba ng vegetables?
-- Yes.
19.sino palagi mong kausap sa phone?
-- Audrey, Dan.
20. huling kausap na matino?
-- Matino naman si Chi.:D
21. Sino ang kasabay mong umuwi?
-- Si yaya. haha.
22. Are you a busy person?
-- Yep, really busy relaxing.:D
23.What/who do you hate most?
-- Plastics and backstabbers.
24. What makes you happy?
-- Dan, my friends, sunsets.
25. If given a chance to have one wish, what would it be?
-- To have a heartfelt talk with my dad again, and to give him the tightest hug ever, as if its our last.:) (there's still heaven, you know?)
26 why?
-- Because I miss him, and because there are things na hindi ko nasabi sakanya dati..
27. "in love"?
-- Yep. Absolutely.
28. 10 yrs from now,what would you be?
-- Hopefully, a practicing doctor na.:)
29. Song/s that best express what ur feeling ryt now?
-- I miss you- Darren Hayes & I love the Nightlife. haha.
30. Is there any person that you miss?
-- Yep. Madami.:)
31. What makes you really angry?
-- when people say mean things about people i love that aren't a proven fact.
32. Gusto mong gawin ngaun?
-- hug si dan habang natutulog siya.
33. Kung may mababalik kang moment sa buhay mo ano un?
--Probably my childhood, or the times when my dad is still alive. I miss him dearly.
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